It is, in fact, a new year in a few days. While I'm not one to make tons of New Year's resolutions, I do look forward to a new start (in a sense) each year. What will come in the next months that I don't even know about? What surprises? What hard times? What good times?
The new year also means that this year is finally over.
I have to say that last year was probably the hardest year of marriage for us. Our marriage was plagued by massive amounts of waiting: waiting to see if Russell could finish his prerequisite classes in time to apply for pharmacy school; waiting to see if he was accepted; waiting to know if we should put our house on the market; waiting for someone to show interest in our house; waiting on finding a new house; waiting to be accepted on our offer for that new house; waiting for closing day on BOTH houses and moving...again; waiting for pharmacy school to get started, etc.
All I can say is that having huge, major, big, giant events like these NOT in our control but in the control of others (house buyers/sellers, pharmacy school people, etc) took its toll. We fought, we cried, we were stressed, we prayed, we waited, we worried. It wasn't like these things were necessarily bad things. They weren't. They were mostly wonderful, actually.
It was the not knowing that wore us out.
Through this past year of major change and upheaval, we learned (the hard way...) to depend more on God and not so much on ourselves. We learned to be patient (boo....) and wait on the Lord to reveal things when He knows we should know; finding a way to be still in the middle of chaos.
Most people didn't know what we went through in our marriage this past year. We are private people, and we don't really broadcast every single thing to anyone with ears (or eyes to read a blog). But there were a few who really helped us through this past year and the hard things we had to walk through. And to those people: thank you.
I don't know why I felt compelled to write about this, but I just can't wait for another year. What will God teach us this year? And I'm thankful for the hard times. Really. It is my opinion that those who never have hard times, whose lives are always oogely-schmoogely, who don't feel compelled to survive with each other are not as solid as those that have to face those things...together. Together is the key word here.
I am so thankful for 2008 and how it made our marriage more solid than it would have been without it.
But I'm glad it is over...
Happy New Year...in a few days! And I hope you enjoyed some pics from Christmas 2008. :)